Friday, April 24, 2009

ICLW failure

I suck. I've been having a hard week and have not managed to leave enough comments for ICLW, although I'm hoping to make up for it by the end of the weekend.

Two nights ago I had an argument with my husband and couldn't sleep - I have occasional insomnia and I don't sleep well in general. The lack of sleep upset my stomach (don't ask, I don't know why), so I spent yesterday feeling like a zombie with a stomache-ache. I promised my husband one nice dinner out before the IUI, so I made myself do it, but it was disappointing to not really be able to enjoy it.

Then I slept for 10 hours last night before my second ultra-sound this morning. The ultra-sound for which the clinic was running 40 minutes late and made my husband very cranky. The ultra-sound that showed that my lining is thinner than it has been for the last two cycles and that I only have one follice. One lousy follicle. I have no hope for this cycle anymore.

I know, one is all it takes. But I think it will be easier for me to look ahead to the next cycle and some changes the RE suggested. She wants to up my clomid dosage and maybe put me on estrogen. The husband said he wanted to ask them if it was really worth even doing another cycle. I feel like crying. Again. I hope it's the clomid that is making me this emotional.

So to sum it all up, I've had a fairly crappy week, a crappy uterine lining, only one follice (not sure if it's crappy), and a cranky husband. All I can think to say is TGIF.

18 comments:

  1. I get stomach upset when I'm over-tired, too. Sorry you've had such a crappy week!

    Although I can understand why you have no more hope for this cycle, you still may get a pleasant surprise. Here's hoping you do.

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  2. Sorry for the rough week! :( I would be super cranky, too, if I were you. I hope you can get some R&R this weekend and feel better!

    ICLW
    makingmemom.blogspot.com

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  3. Aww honey, I'm sorry you've had a crappy week. I hope you have a wonderful weekend. If you need to get away, my house is always open for ya. It's a bit of a trek, but the offer is there ;o) Email would probably be easier, huh? :D
    *HUGS*

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  4. Cranky after a bad week is perfectly acceptable. Hang in there and feel better. Hope you have a relaxing weekend.

    Mr. Shelby (from iclw)

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  5. I've also only had one follicle in each of the past two cycles, and it is so, so frustrating. :(

    If I don't sleep enough I also get an upset stomach. I can't explain it, but it's happened since I was a teenager.

    I hope you have a relaxing weekend and that next week is better for you. :)

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  6. First - welcome to iclw! Second - we all get behind, then catch up! Third - hope the crankies are leaving you soon and hope returns!

    iclw

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  7. Don't worry about ICLW -- you've had a hard, hard week. And hope, while certainly a nicer feeling to have than despair, will not affect how your cycle goes, so don't worry about that!

    I hope that you have a good weekend, and are able to get some rest. Thinking of you!

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  8. I'm sorry your not feeling confident about this cycle. I know that clomid can thin your lining. I've heard of adding the estrogen to help. I hope that this cycle does work though.
    PS Who's your doc?

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  9. (((hugs))) hope you have a great weekend!

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  10. I'm totally behind, too. I'm hoping to catch up over the weekend. Sorry for the sucky week! Maybe a massage is in order. Or lots of chocolate. Hang in there.
    ~C

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  11. I'd say don't worry about ICLW. You've had a really rough week. I'm behind, but I don't have half your excuse. :)

    Really sorry things are so tough right now. Keeping you in my thoughts.

    Smitty76
    (ICLW slacker.)

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  12. I'm sorry your having such a shitty week.
    All us ICLW's aren't disapointed.
    We are just hoping things get better very soon.
    Thank god for the weekend.

    X Caragh
    ICLW*

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  13. Don't fret over ICLW....you will have ample chances to do it again....I hope things start to look up soon for you....

    *ICLW*

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  14. So sorry to hear you are having a rough week!! Hope today was better!

    ICLW

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  15. Ugh. I hope your weekend was better!

    ICLW

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  16. What a crappy week. Hopefully this one will be better.

    I would like to suggest Dr Jeffrey Thompson's relaxation cds. They are so helpful. I really believe your sleep will improve. If you have a Borders near you, they should be 50% off. Try them. I especially like the Ocean Waves cd.

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  17. Sorry to hear that you are having a crappy week. Clomid made me CrAzY, so I'm sure it is playing a major part role in your bad week.

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  18. (((HUGS))), honey. I wish that there were some words that I had that could make it all better, but if words actually worked THAT well, we'd all be pregnant by now. Just know that I'm here thinking of you and hoping for you.

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Thanks for sharing your thoughts!