Lilypie - Pregnancy

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Am I an idiot?

I did it. I woke up at 5am and couldn't get back to sleep, trying to decide if I should test a day early. I have several of those super-sensitive tests that say they are 95% accurate the day before your expected period. I finally gave in at 5:45.

Negative, of course.

I couldn't sleep after that. I feel like shit. Why is this happening to me?


  1. Don't give up; there's still the possibility that your HcG level isn't high enough for a HPT. But I'm so sorry about the discouragement. Still hoping for you...

  2. I haven't commented on your blog before, but I've been reading it for a while. I started my TTC journey at almost the same time as you - I went off the pill in December of 2007 also.

    Each BFN is heartbreaking. I'm expecting to see yet another in a few weeks (we're trying "on our own" for a few months before IUI). When that stupid no is staring you in the face, it is hard to maintain perspective. But try and remember that you can, and will, try again next month. That "no" doesn't mean never - it just means not yet.

    So, grieve, because you have the right to grieve. But stay hopeful. I will keep you in my prayers. God bless!

  3. Oh honey! I'm sending you hugs. Please enjoy your day!

  4. :-( Boo. There are few things more heartbreaking. I'm so sorry. Hang in there.

  5. You're totally not an idiot -- I would have done exactly the same thing if I had wine country plans. I'm so sorry about the HPT disappointment. I'm thinking good thoughts for your beta!

  6. We've all done it. I'm sorry about the HPT. I hope the beta has better news. Hugs to you.

  7. Thank you for your comment on my S&T post! I'm sorry you've had a bummer of a BFN. I hope for a better outcome with your beta soon!


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