Lilypie - Pregnancy

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

One more day

I had a good weekend, and I've kept myself really busy. Cleaning and organizing the house is going well, and I'm really happy with how things look. If only I could get rid of our filthy carpet, I would be so much happier, but unfortunately that isn't something a renter can do. If there was one thing I should do more often around the house, it's probably vacuuming.

But anyway, talking about cleaning houses is boring. I spent the weekend up in the foothills of the Sierra, hanging out with old friends, spending some quality time with my husband and family, and going for a pretty tough bike ride.

Work is getting worse and worse. Management here consists of a lot of fairly stupid people, which in itself might not be so bad, except they are also vindictive, finger-pointing, ass-kissing, insincere idiots. I am tired of working for people who blame me when they are wrong and take the credit when I am right. I am reaching the end of my rope, and I don't know if I can work here much longer. I have five and a half weeks until I leave for Italy, and I wonder if I can find something else by then.

And of course only one more day until I POAS. And even though I know there is not a good chance it will be positive, I will still be very sad if it's negative. I hope my husband understands that I can't help it, that this isn't easy for me, that I've been through a lot, that the last two months have been especially emotionally difficult, and being sad and crying can be cathartic and healing for me. Thank goodness that tomorrow's a holiday - I need a day off.

11 comments:

  1. Thinking good thoughts for you for tomorrow!

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  2. Sounds like a good weekend away, and a much needed break! It's always ok to be sad when things don't work out -- hope keeps this all going, but it also leads to some disappointment and sadness. good luck tomorrow!

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  3. Crossing my fingers and sending prayers that tomorrow will be a peaceful day for you, with a happy result.

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  4. I'm glad you have the day off tomorrow. I hope you have something to celebrate!

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  5. Hoping for great news tomorrow...and that you can enjoy the day off!

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  6. Here's to good news tomorrow! I too am going to POAS and hope for both of us we get what we want.

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  7. Good luck POAS. And with finding a new job.

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  8. I hope you get an awesome day off filled with good news. I too went on a long hard bike ride the weekend before I POAS. Everything in our lives and IF paths have been so similar so far...I want this to be it for you. So badly. I will check back in tomorrow...until then my thoughts are with you and my fingers are more than crossed (if that's even possible).

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  9. Having a job you don't like and then coworkers you don't like also is so miserable. I hope you're able to find something else. I'll be thinking of you and hoping that Hpt shows something great.

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  10. I am pulling for good news for you tomorrow! I'm sorry about the sucky co-workers.

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  11. Thinking of you and hoping for some good news.
    Hugs.

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Thanks for sharing your thoughts!