Breaks are really fantastic

CanI just say that I'm really enjoying this month off?

Last weekend, the husband and I went to the northern California coast for a two-day bike trip, parking our car in a valley about 10 miles from the coast and doing a 73-mile loop with a change of clothes, some water, and our wallets in our backpacks. It was crazy hot (we had a heat wave this weekend), but absolutely amazing to ride along the Pacific Coast Hwy 1, stay in a gorgeous hotel right on the ocean, have a fantabulous 6-course dinner with matching wines, and just spend some time outside away from infertility. Almost makes me not want to have kids!

Seriously, though, I'm enjoying the time off, without the constant obsessing. Being able to think about other things, like my garden and triathlons and time with friends. It feels good and it feels healthy and relaxing.

It's also making me realize that I can't stay in my job forever. I assumed that at some point I'd take maternity leave, and if i came back, I'd try to come back only part time. Having to contemplate staying in this job long-term, with no break in sight - well, it's depressing, horrifying really. So that's good to know and something I'll have to think about a lot in the coming weeks and months. (Also, I just popped a couple of keys off my keyboard to clean it and now it feels weird - I can't put up with that forever, you know).

So anyway - I'll be posting and commenting less for a month while I enjoy my "time off". And my posts may be about things other than infertility, because I'm realizing (even if I don't always remember) that there are other things in life besides infertility.

Like wine.