I'm going to sound like a jerk in this post, and so I apologize in advance. Seriously - I'm sorry. Because I'm about to complain. If you will be annoyed by complaining, just click away now.
I've read a lot of things about women who loved being pregnant and wish they could always be pregnant. I hoped that would be me. In fact, I STILL hope that will be me. Maybe second trimester?
Because the truth is, up until now, I hate being pregnant. I feel so sick, almost all the time. The week of repreive I had was wonderful, but the morning sickness is back. And on top of it, I'm completely exhausted. I sleep 9-10 hours a night and could easily stay in bed for a few more hours if I didn't have to get up to go to work.
I don't have a life anymore - I spend all day at work feeling queasy and trying to get something done while wishing the clock would move faster. I get home and try to get a few things done around the house before dinner, and then I try to relax a bit before crawling into bed and passing out. Doing even basic, easy chores has become a monumental task that I can barely do, and my apartment looks terrible. Luckily we're leaving for Italy for Christmas soon, so I don't really need to do any grocery shopping.
I miss my energy and wish it would come back. I haven't done any of my physical therapy for my knee in weeks. I barely remember what my bike looks like. I've been given permission to start jogging again, but ha! I don't think that's going to happen any time soon.
Of course, none of this matters. All that matters is that my babies stay healthy and inside for another 30 weeks at least. I know this is true. But sometimes I wish I could have it a little easier along the way.
Nodding...
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I feel exactly, and I mean exactly, the same way. Eat, sleep, (hurl), work. No kind of life.
Zofran. It's a gift from heaven.
I'm really looking forward to the 2nd trimester, and hoping that my energy comes back. It's really, really exhausting.
You're not alone. :)
Sorry that you aren't feeling well. I was SO tired during the first trimester, too. I would coem home from work to take a nap, lay on the couch all night and still get 9-10 hours of sleep overnight. Hope it will get better for you soon!!
ReplyDeleteAh yes. I perhaps didn't say this explicitly in my blog, but i wasn't having too many pleasant feeling about pregnancy the first 10 weeks or so. And frankly, it's still not that fun, but now i can clean the house. you words are the feelings of many! i hope i enjoy this more as time goes on too. i'm mostly enjoying the joy of those around me. i can't believe i was one of those excited about everyone else's pregnancy people, and mine has been...not fun...so far, even though it's better...
ReplyDeleteJust because you had to fight harder than most to get to the point you are at doesn't make it a requirement that you constantly rave about how wonderful you feel. You can be happy and excited and still be sick of feeling awful. Hope it gets better soon and I hope you enjoy your trip.
ReplyDeleteI ditto what battynurse says! You are allowed to complain @ being pregnant! Who likes being tired and puky all the time?! {hugs} You are going to love Italy!
ReplyDeleteNo one likes feeling sick and exhausted. There's not one person that's throwing up that will say, "hey this is awesome!"
ReplyDeleteI just hope you get some relief soon so that you don't have to travel feeling that way. Give yourself the rest your body needs, and try not to worry about a clean house. Easier said than done, I know :).
Like I always say to my husband, as a former avid runner and cyclist, pregnancy is seriously cramping my style.
ReplyDeleteIt will get better, just give it time. I am feeling that same way right now. I am ready to look pregnant, not be so tired, be able to use my fetal doppler to hear the heartrate on my own at home & maybe just relax. I know I am weeks away from all of that though. Congrats again, and I promise it will get better, usually around 14 weeks, which I know seems so far away, but one morning you will just feel good. I promise!
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