16 weeks (almost)

I should be happy, but I am feeling a little down today.

Tomorrow, I am 16 weeks pregnant. As usual, it doesn’t seem like it could possibly be real, but it is. It’s been 3 weeks since I’ve seen the beans (Tadpole and …?...), and I am anxious to see them again. My next appointment is next Wednesday, when I will be 17 weeks.

I haven’t really gotten good answers about the NT scan, and it’s frustrating me. No one told me I should get my blood test done first, so I didn’t have any of that ready when I went for the scan, and the genetic counselor said I would get my results from the OB’s office. I called and spoke with a nurse who said that some tests were negative (for being a carrier of a genetic defect) and others looked good. She didn’t seem to really understand what the tests meant, and that’s all I got. Shouldn’t I get something a little more concrete than that? I don’t know what to do about it. I have felt that my entire pregnancy, from the RE to the OB to the NT scan people, has been handled in a very laissez-faire way, and it’s starting to annoy me a bit.

My work conference went well, but I am exhausted. I am having a lot of trouble sleeping, and I’m not sure if it’s related to the pregnancy. I have always had a penchant for insomnia (lucky me) and it seems to be kicking in again. Right at a time when I really need my sleep.

Last, we put in a bid on the house we were really interested in, and we were outbid the same day. We even upped our bid quite a bit, and the other buyer’s bid was still higher. There are almost no houses available in our town (let me put it this way – in a $400,000 price range, there are about 10-15 houses total on the market). Anything good that comes on the market gets sold quickly, and if we try to bid, someone else always outbids us the same day (this isn’t the first time it’s happened). We really can’t stay in our apartment, at least not comfortably. We have nowhere to keep stuff like a stroller, a bike trailer for the babies, new furniture, toys, etc. Even if I do a major clean and cull, it won’t buy us that much more space. And it’s really old and dirty – the carpet needs to be replaced, among other things, and there’s no way the landlord will do that while we’re still living there (if at all). The chances of another decent home coming on the market in the next few months aren’t great, and I’m starting to feel a bit panicked.

I know I shouldn’t complain. I’m 16 weeks pregnant with twins, I have a roof over my head, a good job, a wonderful husband, enough to eat, and everything I really need in my life. I know I need to focus more on what I have in my life instead of what’s missing. Still, I think a nice, clean place to live is a reasonable request.

Only one more week until I see the little ones, and maybe find out the sexes, too! I’m so excited!