I can't seem to finish posts. I'm going to write a quick one while I'm pumping. Gecko turns 4 months on Friday. He's SO sweet and awesome. And cranky and difficult. His sleep is awful. We're cosleeping, and he wakes up every 1.5 hours ALL. NIGHT. LONG. I'm so tired all the time.
Nursing is still going well. He won't take a bottle, which has sort of sucked, but I admit that I haven't tried very hard. I'm working on so many things at once, too, when he naps and when the au pair is available to hold him. I'm also taking him along with me to jog and do other exercise.
I don't think I've ever been this happy, this tired, this all-around in love with life, and this ready to have life get just a little easier. The mess and clutter of my house are driving me batty, and the inability to dedicate full days to cleaning it up make me crazy. On the other hand, I do get small bits done here and there and really enjoy the peace it brings.
Most of all, I love spending time with my older kids and my sweet last baby. I'm trying to soak it all up, live in the moment, and feel gratitude for everything I've been given. I know the sleep troubles will pass, and I can function just fine, so I just try to appreciate every day what my little bundle of joy brings to my life.
Done pumping, so I have to run, but more sooner or later ... probably later.
