Almost 4 months (!!!!)

I can't seem to finish posts.  I'm going to write a quick one while I'm pumping.  Gecko turns 4 months on Friday.  He's SO sweet and awesome.  And cranky and difficult.  His sleep is awful.  We're cosleeping, and he wakes up every 1.5 hours ALL. NIGHT. LONG.  I'm so tired all the time.

Nursing is still going well.  He won't take a bottle, which has sort of sucked, but I admit that I haven't tried very hard.  I'm working on so many things at once, too, when he naps and when the au pair is available to hold him.  I'm also taking him along with me to jog and do other exercise.

I don't think I've ever been this happy, this tired, this all-around in love with life, and this ready to have life get just a little easier.  The mess and clutter of my house are driving me batty, and the inability to dedicate full days to cleaning it up make me crazy.  On the other hand, I do get small bits done here and there and really enjoy the peace it brings.

Most of all, I love spending time with my older kids and my sweet last baby.  I'm trying to soak it all up, live in the moment, and feel gratitude for everything I've been given.  I know the sleep troubles will pass, and I can function just fine, so I just try to appreciate every day what my little bundle of joy brings to my life.

Done pumping, so I have to run, but more sooner or later ... probably later.

3 months

Little Gecko is 3 months old today.  It's been 2 months since I've written.  It's been SO busy, and this little guy just sucks up whatever spare time I have.  Which is fine.  I'm so in love with him.  And life.  And my whole family.

I'm really happy today because Gecko slept well last night.  The previous few nights were not so good.  He's sometimes waking up every hour or two, which gets old and I get tired and it all just sort of sucks.  But a good night of sleep does wonders.

He's an awesome baby overall, though.  He has a fantastic pouty face which I hope he never grows out of.  He has an adorable smile as well.  He's starting to grab stuff and hold toys and swat at things that are dangled over him.  He finally is ok with a short amount of tummy time.  I've been taking him for jogs in the stroller, and a couple weeks ago we went snowshoeing.

Turtle and Tadpole are doing well, too.  Tadpole drives Gecko pretty crazy - constantly poking at him and hugging and kissing him.  She just quit violin and will start voice lessons.  She's finally riding her bike a bit more, too.  Turtle is doing well with violin, and is really learning how to read, it's amazing.